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"Thank you Dr. Heller for giving me my life back."

September 5, 2000

Hello,

My name is Pam.  I am a 30 year old mother of twins who suffers from the Borderline Personality Disorder, Bipolar, ADD (attention deficit disorder), General Anxiety Disorder and tendencies of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.  I first discovered my problem when I was in my teens.  I self-mutilated and attempted suicide several times.  I was hospitalized for 30 days then released with no medication.  These problems continued for about 3 years with no help.  I thought I out grew them and started feeling better.

I met and fell in love with my high school sweetheart, we got engaged and started to plan our lives together.  I held a good responsible job, and life was great.  I gave birth to twins in 1996, a beautiful boy and little girl.  It was only 6 months later that I started to experience signs of depression again.  I would cry for days on end.  I couldn't get up in the night with the kids and I had no energy to do anything.  I felt like I had a hole in my heart.  Everyone was telling me I was just exhausted and had a little bit of the baby blues.  As time went on things got worse, I couldn't get out of bed in the morning to take care of the twins.  I felt totally unattached.

I went to see a psychiatrist who said I was suffering from post-partum depression.  He put me on Paxil and said I should feel better soon.  I ended up trying to overdose instead.  I also started to experience psychotic episodes.  I started hearing voices and seeing people.  I then searched out a doctor who was top in his field for bipolar.  He diagnosed me with Bipolar and put me on more medicine and suggested I see a therapist.  I continued to feel worse.  Even though my family was supportive, I felt like nobody understood what I was going through.  My husband was great taking over the household tasks.  We had to hire someone to come in and take care of the twins.  I didn't want to live if this was the way I would feel.  I wanted to die and could actually picture my own funeral.  I thought everyone would be better off with me dead.  I started cutting myself again and trying to take my own life.  I had several hospital stays, went to see at least 6 different doctors and therapists.  I even went as far as to have E.C.T.  treatments, which were not successful.  I was on so much medicine and all it seemed to do was put a ton of weight on me and dope me up.  I wanted my life back again.  I wanted my children to respond to me.

My mother was fortunate to find Dr. Heller's Website.  She went out and purchased his first book, then called me.  She said she would do anything in the world to get her old Pam back.  We made the arrangements to go to Florida to see if Dr. Heller could be of help to me.  Our first visit proved to be successful.  Dr. Heller diagnosed me with Bipolar, Borderline Personality Disorder, ADD (attention deficit disorder), Generalized anxiety disorder, and tendencies of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.  By making these diagnoses he took me off all but one of my medicines and started me on new ones.

Within 3 days I started feeling better.  I now have much more energy and a purpose to live again.  During my visits with Dr. Heller he made me feel like I was important.  He was the first doctor I went to that was so sure he could help me.  He explained to me I had a genetic neurological disorder that was not my fault.  At my second visit I felt like a new person.  My family was amazed at the difference in me, it was like night and day.  Finally by my last visit I felt reborn, as if I was seeing things for the first time.  The grass was greener, and the ocean was more blue than it ever had been before.

I would like to thank Dr. Heller for giving me my life back.  God Bless him for the miracles he is performing.